My
life is changing. I feel the restlessness for breaking out of a cocoon of the
past. I have been told who I am not, and I will not be branded by it. Feeling
mired where I am, I will not remain stuck in it. As a caterpillar is
transformed to have wings of liberty, I will escape that which has bound me as
the person that I am no longer, one shackled by the people who imprisoned me with
their false perceptions. With the transformation to a butterfly that is unrecognizable
from what it was, I will escape the web that confined me and explore my new
world with wings of freedom. I will meet new people that share common interests
and develop deep friendships. I will not care what others think of me, for I am
not a pawn to be sacrificed for someone else’s gain. I am a knight, a stellar
knight who is called to a higher purpose. When confronted with an obstacle, I
move left or right to overcome it to continue moving forward. This means I will
need to leave some things behind, all that impedes me from flying with new
wings. I will sail in a new wind of circumstances and put out new sails that
harness the changing currents to move with purpose towards my destiny. The
experience is in the journey, the destination one of faith that I see through
my mind’s eye, my passion for it propelled by my heart’s desire.
What
would I have gained to win such a worldly battle? My calling and my destiny
will not be changed by man who is a mere obstacle that I overcome by moving
left or right. Victory is not an
endpoint. I live in victory everyday as I leave behind the battlefield of
someone else’s war. Let them count and bury the dead. My life is not of this
world, it is stellar. Stellar is not who I am, it is my journey, my destiny, a
daily progression of spiritual renewal and growth.
I
recall a vision of me leading, a solitary figure seen from above moving towards
an unseen goal. But I was not alone! People began to follow me, first one, then
two, then a small group. And as time progressed through this vision, a throng
was behind me, a mass following a cause, not a person, but a mission.
I
will not focus on what I cannot do in the moment, but what I can do that aligns
with the pursuit of my goal. My goal is not singular, but multifaceted like a
diamond, all taken together as a symbol of beauty and symmetry purposely formed
from the fire and pressure of my experiences.
I
do not need anyone with whom to
journey life, yet it is my heart’s desire
to share love and the beauty of its treasure. I am a vastly unique and complexly
romantic. Some may appreciate this, fewer will embrace it, and one will be able
to receive this beauty as part of their own.
The
course of my vision continues as I have not seen this before: There are those
who follow but stop, others waver to the sidelines, but there is one who breaks
from the pack in a run to meet the leader, to walk side-by-side and
hand-in-hand. He didn’t need someone by his side to lead, but someone else had
the passion to join him, not to change his destiny, but to partner
symbiotically with the man who was leading the journey of her own.
This is true love, falling
in step with someone, the rhythm of two hearts beating as one.
