Monday, September 4, 2017

PURSUIT: A Novel – 23.2: Revelation – Candle


Jerry’s Flat – Friday Night, March 10, 1989
Jerry’s flat was sparse on furniture and furnishings, but what it lacked in décor, he made up with sound fidelity. The speaker towers on each side of the simple bookshelf made of cinder blocks and oak planks from the ranch—remnants from a barn torn down long ago—faced the overstuffed chair placed in the precise audio center of the room. He scanned the albums stacked to the side of the receiver. He pulled one from the bottom—long forgotten—the cover was a graphic of wheels turning from railroad to space. He pulled the vinyl from its sleeve, set the vinyl on the turntable, and pulled the lever to place the needle in the groove. He plopped into his favorite and only chair.
The past week was a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions—the shocking and humbling effect of being so close to instant death—yet saved miraculously—hearing a supernatural voice, waking to strangulation—lungs filled like a balloon—and being swept away from an oncoming truck—and last night, was it a bat that swooped through his bedroom, the air from its wings brushing his face? Good seemed to be battling evil.
Why do I find myself in the middle of this battle? And why after four years dedicated to pursuing a rich career, do I struggle to write what was so obvious to me?
The piano ballad that soothed his nerves raw from caffeine, little sleep, and frustration, led to familiar vocals, “I can’t fight this feeling any longer,” and with that, he sank further into the overstuffed chair and leaned his head back to stare at the ceiling.
To make matters worse . . . or for the better?
The emotion this afternoon with Christina was like the exhilaration he experienced when he reached the peak of the Grand Teton last summer, feeling high on thin air at nearly 14,000 feet. Now, his heart was out of breath, not used to the stimulation of a beautiful girl that filled his spirit with her own. She was not like any girl he had ever met, yet he felt a kindred familiarity from within. He had confided in her that which shook him to his core, a change in his life that was difficult to express, yet she totally understood the essence of his need to discover his destiny at this pinnacle of life.
“Cause I feel so secure when we’re together . . . ” he sang with REO and wandered to the window that overlooked the street, hands in his pockets, and looked at the floor deep in thought. She brought stability to his tumultuous thoughts that gave him direction and focus.
He took a deep breath and his mind flashed back to the scene in the coffee shop with her. “Christina, yes, Christina, a soothing thought, yet your presence so invigorates me. Your eyes . . . a kaleidoscope . . . ” He smiled as he closed his and imagined the twinkling of hers. “Amber, topaz, brown sapphire . . . ” Then continued as he looked out at the building across the street— “That look into mine . . . ”
He saw a candle in the window.
“Radiating trust and love,” he said, finishing his thought and staring at the candle.
You’re a candle in the window . . .
The voice of REO’s lead singer echoed in the room. He closed his eyes and shook his head. The upper story across the street had been vacant since he had moved in last fall. What is a candle doing in the window?
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for . . .
REO’s lyrics caused him to reflect on his inner fight, angry that he had spent four years striving, pushing himself towards a goal that now seemed not his own.  He paused in thought, and a quizzical look replaced one of wonder. He recalled the words that Christina emphatically spoke to him while mesmerized by her sparkling eyes, and slowly recited them, “Write the words God spoke to you.”
He took a moment to ponder, leaned on the windowsill and stared at the candle as REO finished their ballad.
Cause I can’t fight . . . can’t fight this feeling anymore.

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Copyright 2017  © Jeff Cambridge

Excerpt from PURSUIT, a novel by Jeff Cambridge, a writer of transformational fiction with characters that tell life-changing stories.
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